do whatever it should be

and make a miracle?

but in fact im free now

because i don’t know where to start my work from

i need guidelines, step by step

but i’ve just realised

i’m not in secondary school anymore

fucked up

- i wanted to study but something bothered me
- i will do revision everyday after classes
- i will start studying tomorrow
- i will attend all the classes
- i will write my reports
- i will do my project

but I AM STILL WAY SLACKING

fuck it

3 more days to go back for CNY

1 year, 2 years.. it was just like not long ago..

despite of that it’s really important to learn how to look forward, right?

my heart goes freezing tgt with the snow..

but I hope it wouldn’t break again.

im heading home in 8 hours time .

it’s time to book me, if you haven’t do so .

because holidays always go away faster than anyday

have a blessed december and happy holidays everyone .

**early wishes for those in UK

the worst preparation I ever had .

even worse than my SAM .

fuck this shit .

My mood just doesn’t care about this anymore .

zzz go for holidays first . bye

i don’t want to care

i don’t want to care

okay, fine . i’d still have to face it one day right .

be a man, do the right thing, they all told me.

am i being too optimist now?

i only know i’ve to fight for something i want .

* did i say im no longer emo? ok I lied

** facebook’s auto-feed option removed until i don’t use this place to spit emo stuffs

*** final exams, im sorry, to myself, i don’t fucking care about it now

挂耳机听歌 哼着慢行

脑海的影画 飘浮问号

来这的目的 已被遗忘


孤单一个人 逛着超市

无虑得选购 因当快乐

零食巧克力 篮子皆是

但似乎有缺 有些遗漏

漏了朋友的啰嗦

缺了朋友的催熟

一个人吃着雪糕

已没有当中乐趣

来到这里 我比堕落还要再堕落

整天呆在只有四幅墙的房间

对着电脑

连接着网络

过着外国的时间

学校已有着可以三天捕鱼，四天补网的生活

但我连那三天都懒得出海

等着鱼儿自己闯上海岸

是时候抛弃 守诛待兔的懒散

是时候努力 至少能亡羊补牢

是时候补祸 不想再留着遗憾

那个肥的 不要给我留言说’都叫你不要来’

一年还没过完

可能还有值得的地方 ..

..b’coz all my app collection, roughly 100++ applications installed in my Iphone, was rubbed off from my phone as I don’t know I’ve to backup the apps seperately. FML

..b’coz of my module in university, I’ve to go to several offices tomorrow to appeal of my rejected module, which I need to pass the grade of Year 3 in UoB. FML

..b’coz I’m frustrated to live in a room with full of dusts. FML

..b’coz I couldn’t decide whether should I go back KL this weekends or not as I’ve an appointment next morning. am planning to skip friday and monday’s classes. FML

..b’coz I realised that I’m running low in cash today. FML

..b’coz the i misunderstood McD SG’s upsize is actually MY’s medium. and they gave me medium size meal. btw SG’s medium is MY’s Large. FML

9 months ago, i was dreaming. i love UK syllabus.
with a bare 70% you could get a first class honours degree cert.
how easy?

6 months ago, i was in a panic mood.
with the stress of tons and tons of lab works flooding me..

4 months ago, i had my first final mark for a subject.
50%, a stupid report with a noob planner.
this isn’t any big deal, i just had to work hard for my final exams, i thought.

3 months ago, i was in a don’t-care-mood.
robot let it run-or-not. just let it be.
i don’t wanna care about this subject anymore.
i’m going to focus on the other 5.

2 months ago, oh exams is getting near.
time to buck up.
alright, went oxford, liverpool, dotaing, facebooking, sleeping, shitting and wad else?

1 month ago, ok exam is here.
1 day revision for each subject. which is THE DAY BEFORE THE EXAM.

1 week ago, first exam was good.
2nd exam was like shit. 3rd exam okay. 4th exam like shit again.

so we got the root-mean-square value of,
(shit + shit + shit + good + ok +ok) = SHIT %rms

first class, don’t even think about it.
60%, possible?
alright I already biasa with this kind of mark.

i can say my result had nvr been excellent for the entire study life of mine.
because of stupidness? or lazyness?

there’s a phrase that everyone like to talk about,
there’s no one who is stupid, only the lazy one.
personal opinion, this is only applicable for the youth.
like <college.
once you’re fixed, you’re forever fixed to one threshold limit.
but there’s of course some exceptional, out of a million

alright i rather rant at here than revising my next subject on tuesday.
probably i know i won’t get any good result anymore.
an 60 and 69 doesn’t make much different to me.

and no, i’m not emoing here.
i’m talking bout the facts, and doing something useful

rather than refreshing facebook,
and nudging everyone’s msn..
at 4am GMT+08 …..
with no reply.

p/s my eng teacher once circled all my small case letter ‘i’ in my essay. but i didn’t give a damn . i’m still loving it =D